20 - something

sometimes being 20 something - barely starting out
seems like a big joke to those who've earnt their shout
been there done that - this is what they say
and i feel all small , insignificant and turn my head away

tho my peers are there around me- all i have to do is connect
i feel all outta place around acquaintances, friends or people ive just met -
it doesn't seem to matter in whatever place ill be
the insecurity rises up and takes control of me
and i surrender to its will and withdraw into my shell
then write it all out in my melancholic hell

Though its fertile ground for creative inspiration
my heart desperately yearns for this ego's participation
in all thats outlandish; fanciful frolicking and fun
its irresistable tho i choose to run -
away from the liberation that it offers to me
if only i could break free
from the minds chains binding.